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Journal

11/12/17:

I love to love
I love to love
Unconditional love

I want to
Like it
I want to
Like it

I love to love
Unconditional love

And I am out
For a ride
Through the long night
I am on my side
On the ride
Through the night

Why don’ t I like it?
I want to like it
I don’t like it

I love to love
Unconditional love

 

9/21/17:

3 shots of scotch
Next to a shooting range
It always sounds like that
In the frame
I don’t think you want to know about this pain
Does it bother you
That he doesn’t have your name?
It shouldn’t matter about her hat
When what’s left of the island colonies
Is up in flames
And if you do nothing
It won’t stay the same

And I got
3 shots of scotch
next to a shooting range

 

 

8/14/17:

1/3 of the population
In general concentration
Counting
Scars
Marks
tattoos
And amputations
We need to enable
Communication
Before
1/3 of the population
Is in
General concentration
Counting
scars
marks
Tattoos
And amputations
What can I do
For visitation?

 

 

8/13/17:

Since they moved us
I can see the light of day
Ain’t no water
Just cool aid
And I think I am in someone’s way
While
waiting
for the bonds man
to come back down
Waiting
for the bonds man
To come back around
And
I ain’t never been so close to his town
Where
I am waiting
for the bondsman
To come back down
Waiting
for the bondsman
To come back
around

On a Sunday
I can see
It is
A sunny day
To be
In someone’s way

 

 

7/28/17:

I don’ t want to eat

I sleep when I sleep

I want to wake up
From the dream
I see what I see
There are secrets that you keep
Out of the deep
I weep when I weep
For the foreseen
And it hurts to eat
I sleep when I sleep
I want to wake up
 from this dream

 

 

7/21/17:

 

Sitting on the pew
On you
They are through
There ain’t much else
I can do
But
Sit on the pew
On you
There are soligers outside
And then there is the crew
The church is white
But I want to paint
the inside blue
And now that they are through
There ain’t much
I can do
But
Sit on the pew
on you

 

 

7/20/17:

I ain’t been to Rome
But
The Pope has been in me
Here is to
Empathy
sympathy
clarity
Now it is mine
To define
Sanctuary
Because
I ain’t been to Rome
But
The pope has been in me
Here is to
Honor and duty
I have been knocked off my feet
Falling down with
Gravity
And he knows that
I ain’t been to Rome
But
The Pope was inside of me
Fear is not a good way to define security
And I don’t
Believe In
Purgatory
And  I
I ain’t been to Rome
But the Pope
Was
Inside of me

 

 

7/18/17:

I am not going to ride under the plane

If it is all the same
I want to leave the game
She said that I can ride with her
In the HOV lane
After i am done counting trains
So I don’t want to ride under the plane
Agony in the maim
Broken jaw unset and hanging lame
Where ever i go
I am in his sane
And if you take me back againe
I ain’t going to ride under the plane
You might not have a choice in the change
Reparations are different than shame
I have taken the energy
And left the blame
And i ain’t gonna ride under the plane

7/8/17:

Chlorine

And

Bleach
Call it retreat
Or
Escape
I still have my hands
I fight for time to make
Some from what was left
In the forsake
For that
Which is green
Is not there
To
Take

6/13/17:

 

 

Garage band
Won’t we stand
Stand stand stand
For what is in our hands
Garage band
Won’t we stand stand stand
For clean energy
that is clearly in demand
I have found more oil
But I can do more
With my hands
with my hands
So as a band
We can withstand
Corporate reprimand
And listen to our land
And the sand
And use our hands
For what we need
Because that is demand
7,000 more years together
As a band
Might be enough
To withstand
Our primary Sun’s demands
And we can spend more time
Together
As A family
As a band

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

6/9/17:

Some other race
On some other day
On some other planet
On some other plane

Some other race
On some other day
With some other name
Would you like me to explain?

Some other race
On some other day
Something like buraceaucracy
Not crazy
But not quite sane

Some other race
On some other day
Something other than water
Falling with the rain

Some other race
On some other day
You can have it your way
To experience something other than pain

I could be a free person
From drugs and pain
Indulge this infatuation
And take your name

And if I
were a free person
And ended the war
differently than the game
Could you stay by my side
And
Love me that way?

 

 

 

 

6/8/17:

> I might go back to san Francisco
> We set it up all to drain
> And maybe they can all play the hero
> And i will try
> Not to
> Call
> Out
> Your name

 

 

 

 

 

6/7/17:
>
> I don’t want to go to Corpus Christi
> It seems so far away
> I don’t want to go back to Corpus Christi
> I am comfortable and I want to stay
> I ain’t going back to Corpus Christi
> I think I found a different way
> I might go back to Corpus Christi
> But baby, no not today
> I think I am ready
> For
> A
> Change

 

6/2/17:

Keeping secrets
Telling lies
In a cashless
Society
Full of spies

 

6/1/17:
Bleeding to death
Is different than
Being
Bled to death
Things haven’t changed much
Except
That the Cadillac is black
I think that I remember that
I enjoyed what I had
And I am
Thankful
For that

 

 
5/5/17 :

30 acres an’t far enough from the road
If you blow your load
I have to carry it through the throne
They can’t count on methadone all alone
If you are in a hurry
Go
On ahead
I have to wait for a hole in the zone
Because
30 acres an’t far enough from the road

 

 

 

3/24/17:

Your glock
Is my glock
And I don’t even use the lock
The satellite sets the clock
You should call if you want to talk

Your glock is my glock
And I don’t even use the lock
Even with the cluster on the stalk
You must keep moving through the shock
If you can still walk

Your glock is my glock
And I don’t even use the lock
Remind me of the terms of this heloc
Just because you an’t got laces
don’t mean that you don’t need socks

Your glock is my glock
And I don’t even use the lock
Maybe you will find luck
Down the block
The reason you parked on the dock

Your glock is my glock
And I don’t even use the lock
I refuse to hawk
Diseased rock
In my shock

Your glock is my glock
And I don’t even use the lock
Snipers can be  hard to  spot
And the militia left those bodies to rot
You can smell it down the bloc
Your glock is my glock
And I don’t even use the lock
It has been getting hot
Please call me I want to talk

 

 

 

 

3/22/17:

I don’t think
The way
They treated him
Was fair
And now
The road to the
Airport
Needs beyond repairs

I don’t think
the way
I Treated me
was fair
I prefer peace
But I have nothing to compare
And if you’re wondering where I am in my vacant stare
On the road to the airport that
Needs
Beyond repairs

I don’t think that
the way
I treated him was fair
That doesn’t mean that I never cared
But this destruction was not what we wanted to share
Repairs beyond need
port of air

 

2/28/17:

Battle field romantic:

It is not your sweat
It is the sweat of the man you killed
The thrill
Before
The chill
I am still
In the fill
There is a will
And there is a bill
I am not Ill
I am still
And I know it is not your sweat
It is the sweat of the men you killed

 

 

 

 

 

2/20/17:

You are only jealous
When I am scared
When I need you
You are there
And I know that you care
I take for granted the air
u fixed my bike, you are the mare
time has healed the tear
I know that you care
I know you care
You deserve your share
When I fail at fair
bullet, Injection or the chair
I made it out of solitaire
To free the air
It is not beyond repair
Marshall law, they wouldn’t dare
When you are there
I will go with you
anywhere

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

2/19/17:

Thailand is not an island
Thailand has many islands
It is not a scandal
It is a relationship
But it is about the get thick real quick
But I didn’t know that it would feel so erotic
On my lips
In my hips
On my finger tips
In this nervous tick
The disease is not as bad as the antibiotic
The jealousy is anemic
The killing is part of the politic
Listening prismatic
Memory hypnotic
It is a pass word that is not schizophrenic
If you are president, should you ask Mr. Prince?
The resolve of a lucrative partnership
Fico after fslic
Rewrote mtu in this recognizance
And I made peace with it
Underneath it
In the peaceful epidemic
Renewable academic
The orgasm is organic
It was cauterized before it was toxemic
The wax is gone but not the wick
It is not a scandal
It is a relationship
But I didn’t know it would feel so erotic
But I am trying to be diplomatic
Transoceanic
O and Thailand
Is not an island
Thailand has many islands

 
2/13/17:

Relation
Immigration
Dimensional deportation
Agitation
Infiltration
Castration
Sensation
Correlation
Vibration
Dilation
Creation, damnation
Filtration
Lactation
Levitation
Libation
Menstruation
Ovulation
Obligation
Inflation
Regulation
Sedation
Quotation
Privatization
Starvation
Plantation
Taxation
Representation
Sublimation
Concentration
Stagnation
Fabrication
Destabilization
Mutation
Oration for
Nations
Cessation
Crustacean
Curvation
Alation
Lation
Formation
Hydration
Deterioration
Cremation
Cognation
Gration
Chelation
Donation
Conflation
Detonation
Gestation
Gemmation
Celebration
Cubation
Cognition
Aeration
Penetration
Masturbation
Fication
Fixation
Vocation
Duration
Gyration
Oblation
Flirtation
Dignation
Indignation
Temptation
Sulcation
Placation
Pacification
Imitation
Probation
Purgation
Dimensional transportation
Well I saw you
At the station
And
He carved his name
Into
My
Leather
Sheets

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

2/11/17:

Your face in on a mountain
Her face on a coin
There is a scape goat in a fountain
I think I can give more

You and me
And the queen
And your baby
In a tower by the sea
Here in peace

There is murder
And there is sacrifice
I have given up those vices
Is it up to you
To name your price
for my advice

1/29/17:

Sweet sweet
Sugar
Tits and ass
Come back
and let me kiss you again
We will be the mosaic in the stained glass
My pussy is on the floor
And it was sold in mass
I don’t have to live there
But I understand the past
We can make peace Together
And forever it will last
With this sweet sweet
Sugar
And my
tits
and my
ass

1/20/17: 

If I sleep
A flood
Could
Take
Us

It is such a lovely day
I don’t have to go in chains
I do not have to go deranged
I do not have to be insane
I can love you anyway
I don’t always miss the rain
On such a lovely day

1/16/17:

You know all my secrets
You know all my lies
You have seen me fall down trying to fly
You know where I have been
I don’t need an alibi
Now
Please send me your body
I have grown Accustomed
to
Your eyes

1/11/17:

Out on the sea
You can’t tap me as easily
Out on the sea
Not as many people bother me
Out on the sea
I let go of torture and scarcity
Out on the sea
I can count happily
Out on the sea
I think of  those
In captivity
When I am  thirsty
Out on the sea
I count the ways to drink the water
there are probably
more than 3
I am Out on the sea
And i am so jealous
I want to leave

I don’t need you
to believe me

1/1/17:

I left the red house
Unlocked again
It is hard to entertain
When his gun
Was his
Only
Friend

I left the red house
unlocked again
You got a bar to tend
For some of daddies
Moody
junky
Friends
I can see your chains
You don’t need to pretend
When my daughter
Returns
You can tell her then

I left the red house unlocked again
In truth
transcend
Where there is nothing left
To condem

Placid in the blend

I left the red house unlocked again
But my man is coming back
And you can be
My sisters friend

12/30/16:

Extras
On the nanny cam
The bridge was out
So I swam
I don’t want to do
Anymore drugs
Please understand
And I don’t want
Extras
On the nanny came
12/28/16:

Watching porn
In
The US embassy
That is where he will be
When
You are done
With me
And I have to
Live
In my body
It is a warning
And
Not a bloody
Guarantee
When you decide
To release me

Maybe I will be safe
With him
Watching porn
In the US embassy
It would be
A different
Commissary
But in the mess hall
I might cause a scene
And it would probably be
Projected
On
Different
Screens

My reinvented reality

And we can have our baby
In
The US embassy
After watching our own porn
I think I might know
How he can be warned
Because
I
have
Been
Really
Sad
About
Corn

12/26/16:

I am in the yard
In my vest, in my vest
I am doing my best
I can pass the test
In my vest , in my vest

I am in the yard
And it shouldn’t have to be this hard
In my vest, in my vest
Incest
Is so confusing
In my vest, in my vest
I won the gold market back with my test
In my vest, in my vest
And our children won’t die with the rest

I am in the yard
Where I am hoarding cards
In my vest, in my vest
Modified food is hard to injest
Even
In my vest

12/23/16:

I don’t want to be a bitch
I didn’t fuck my mother
She is a fucking rapist
I am not a mother fucker
I don’t want to be a bitch

I don’t want to be hitlers bitch
($$ in your itch )
I won’t be hitlers bitch
I refuse the fix

Switch

10/10/16:
Babylon falling remix ( reprise is subjective )
————– stable———–

I want to be
with you
Sleeping on top of the kitchen table
I wake up
And think of you

Restructuring tax sanctions
With the tv on
Buy
A big house
And plant
Food on the lawn

He
Is filling
Prescriptions
In
The
Yard

And

It is good for me
Emitting
Positivity
That energy is
Good for me
Conducive for conductivity
You have been
Good for me
And I should be
Good to me
Emitting positivity
Useful energy
And
Babylon

Does not

have to fall
Into the sea

Where
Gravity
Behaves
Differently
Conducive conductivity

We are lively in our longevity

You have been
Good for me

I want to be with you

7/24/16:

Me and you
At ground
Zero
And an Israeli spy
Too
I was dressed in leather
But your helmet couldn’t
protect us
From the air

You and me at ground zero
And an Israeli spy, too
I fell in love with you the 5th time
And they printed gossip
Instead of news
It was one of my lies
I can’t forget
I know what being spied on
feels like
I know what to expect
Our children won’t die
With the rest
If you let me come back
and stay
with you
You won’t regret
It

Me and you
At ground zero
They spoke about the affair
But no one protected the air
There
between
the threat
And the scare

7/20/16:
I fell in love
At the rodeo
For the 7th time
With you again
my friend

It’s busy
And dizzy
And pretty
Deep inside
The mend

So many lies
And so much anger
But this love I would die to defend

So
I am crawling
Back up on to your island
I am standing back up on the shore

I never meant to miss you this much
Please let me give you more

I was down on my knees the first time
And I will see it
Through to the end

There is truth in power
Quench the yearning
It won’t break in the bend

I fell in love at the rodeo
For the 7th time
with you again
My friend

5/28/16:

Solamente tu
Tu y yo
Yo y tu
El y tu y yo
Usted y el
El y tu
El y usted
Nostros y Ellos
Nostros y usted y el
Nostros y le
Tu y el
Ellas y usted y el
El y tu
Los amo

The mall runs from the French quarter
Through
the alamo
And
I only want you you
Solamente tu

5/27/16:

You and me
You and me and him
I can not move
You take turns
It starts to burn

If it wasn’t you
You and him
It would of been
The head master
The president
A dictator
And some members
Of parliament
Taking turns
In the burn
But
It is you
You and me
You and me and him
Taking turns
I can not move
When it starts to burn
This is the time
that I learn

5/10/16:

Hollies remix 

I have seen girls bought
I have seen girls sold
I have seen them traded
Most don’t grow old

I have seen girls bough
I have seen girls sold
It has been industrialized
But there is no gold

I have seen girls bought
I have seen them sold
It has been propagandized
The population has been controlled
And the new borns will not grow as old

Shaken back onto the fold

So you and me
We
are not alone
There are 12,000 soldiers
Vetting for patrol
Back
In
Holly’s
Wood

5/8/16:

Rapeable is different than fuckable
I hate it until i become it
And i don’t ever go back tampico

5/2/16:

Propagated
Propaganda
Porn wall

Torture
porn wall
Porn wall

You can try to climb
But it is really tall

Porn wall
porn wall

I was lost
Trying to find
the mall

Porn wall
Porn wall

If you want to talk to me
Please call

8572002951

Porn wall
Porn wall

Civil riot
Civil brawl

Porn wall
Porn wall

Trying to choreograph
In a dance hall

Porn wall
Porn wall

Strategically
traumatized
In the shortfall

Porn wall
Porn wall

They sold themselves
The cannon balls

To tear down the wall

Please Leave a message
If i can’t answer
The call

/28/16:

Dulce de la Paz
Dulce de la vida
Dulce de la sol
Dulce del mi amor
Dulce de la verdad

Fortalece mi Corazon

4/25/16:

Femmed out
Standing down
Femmed out
Stand down
I don’t deserve
to be
passed
around

Locked out.
Stand your ground
We will lay
Their occupation
Down
4/19/16:

By the time I got to Chicago
He was already dead
The producers had asked me to come to New York
But I stayed in Texas instead
By the time they found his body
They couldn’t recognize his head
You can eat all you want

sugar

but that doesn’t mean
That your soul will be fed
When you keep punishing yourself
You can’t be a good friend
this aching heart
wishes that I knew this then
But
By the time I left Chicago
I realized
that he meant
what he said

4/16/16:

I have red lip stick on

And
where did yolanda get her gun ?
Where did yolanda get the gun?

Living in the motel wasn’t fun

With all of my broken
promises
I just kept one

4/15/16:

He cheated
With
Me

He cheated
With
Me

He cheated on me
He cheats on me

He cheated with me
He cheated with me

He cheats on me
He cheats on me

He cheats me
With me
He cheats
Me
With
Me

Vestiges
of
slavery

The studios
Are
Dependant on
factories

Running
Drugs
And
Weaponry

You can’t over think the incendiary

4/a8/16:
He is with Wendy now
I got to go back to Kansas
And I know that
It is north
But I don’t know
how
Actions are different than words
When you take a vow
O, my Luxembourg
And those cayucos cows
When they say it out loud
It sounds so profound
If you work your field
I will re invent the plough

3/31/16:

I fucked my self
And I keep fucking myself
I keep fucking myself

Tonight I want to fuck someone else

Is it me fucking my self
With some else there
Because
No one else can fuck with me
No one else can fuck with me
But me
There were things I sacrificed
While reinventing
My reality

3/26/16:

I am caught in a cou
Boo boo hoo
I am trying to think about what to do

Maybe Baghdad won’t have been so bad
When I had what I had when I had what I had
Life doesn’t always have to be so sad

I am caught in a cou
And the sky an’t blue
With weaponized flu
Only you can know
that you knew

I am caught in a cou
Thinking about you
Boo hoo
I am thinking about
What I am going to do

3/24/16:

He likes me
He likes me
He likes to fuck with me

He likes me
He likes me
He likes to fuck with me

I asked
Where would he put my body ?

He said
In his bone yard in austin
Underneath the trees

Negotiate conditional release
But after torture
There is no free

He likes me
He likes me
He likes to torture me

Underfed
And unprepared
Wonders never cease
And
Not all sleepers
Dream

3 /20/16:

Photo shoots in the cancer ward
Sewn. But it tore
Photo shoot In a cancer ward
She said thank you
I am never bored
Photo shoots in a. Cancer ward
Got to have a mask on
To open the door

Trying to Leave the cancer ward
Caught in lockdown
With a man on the floor

3/17/16:

Dear olde mister Sullivan
I miss you dearly
Here as I call
Dear old mister Sullivan
Dare I not fall?
Dear old mister Sullivan
Forgive me
I was wrong
Dear old mister Sullivan
I have my back up against a wall
Dear old mister Sullivan
Remind me how to be strong
Dear old mister Sullivan
Thank you for telling me
where I went
when I was gone

3/5/16:
Not all scars
Are permanent

I need to move somewhere else
I need to move somewhere else
Fast
Where the fuck should I go?

3/4/16:

Si se puede
With my
Breakfast song

Si se puede
As my breakfast song

I don’t like that you have been gone so long

2/28/16:
My stalker has been stalking someone else
My stalker has been stalking
Someone else

I will use this time to pick up what’s left
I will look at my old life
To see what i kept

My stalker has been stalking
Someone else
My stalker has been stalking someone else

I have been numb so long i don’t know what i felt
I was programmed to except the hand that i was dealt

My stalker has been stalking
Someone else
My stalker has been stalking
Someone else

I can find a river to piss in
somewhere else
I don’t have to feel helpless watching the melt

My stalker has been stalking
Someone else
My stalker has been stalking someone else

I have spent time looking at the walls of a cell
My pants hang low but it is so hard to wear a belt

My stalker has been stalking
Someone else
My stalker has been stalking
Someone else

It is not selfish of the indentured
To demand a share of the wealth
He watches me from his mansion
As i hide in a motel

My stalker has been stalking
Someone else
My stalker has been stalking

I can smell her blood
But i can’t stop the bleeding
All i can do
Is wish her well

2/19/16:

What do I ask Alice when she comes
What do I ask Alice when she comes

Being right ain’t always fun
No use in waiting for it to start
After it has begun

What do I ask Alice when she comes
What do I ask Alice when she comes?

I know how to keep it together
I know how it came undone
There has got to be a use for thread
While they are running
Guns

What do I ask Alice when she comes?
What do I ask Alice when she comes?

Every piece of bread Leaves Crumbs

I know about the deficit
I know about the sum
I know about the factories

I never leave the slum

What do I ask Alice When she comes?
What do I ask Alice when she comes?

I am sorry I an’t always nice in the numb
I have seen the ice
I know where the water came from

What do I ask Alice when she comes?
What do I ask Alice when she comes?
I could try to split
A tantrum
A prism
An atom

It is important
To be productive
As a bottom

And
even if I leave
I will still be in love

12/5/15:

Healing through
The killing fields

Wielding through
The healing fields

Bleeding
In a stagnant pool

Every good
Weapon is a tool
11/23/15:

You can’t rape the willing
The free market provides
I survived the tight rope
And I walked on
Down the line
And it is more than just an effigy
They killed him in front of me
The list is long
We identify who decides

And he has his escorts
And he has his strippers too
He can buy his women
But that won’t make it true

I think that it hurt the first time
And it hurt the second time, too
And maybe if I look
At it differently
It will feel brand new

And sometimes fuck you
Is the kindest thing that you can say
To the rat mother fuckers
That keep getting in your way
I am on my way

You can’t rape the willing
But o the free market
And the growing class divide
I am not sure what it will take
To humanize the kind
I will love you always
I don’t have much
But my body
Is mine

11/22/15:

I don’t want your drugs
Now
Mixed in with our sex
You have been
Taking more than giving
Darling
And I won’t deal with less

I don’t want your drugs
When we lay down
To rest
I don’t want to live without you
But I will do my best

I don’t want your drugs
This is my request
I want things to be different this time
Sugar
I have loved you since we met

I don’t want your drugs
This is not a test
Serial habits baby
I will make it better for the rest

I don’t want your drugs
This is myself
Repossessed
Your obsessions
Have left me
Oppressed
I don’t want your drugs
I won’t suppress this
I want to paint a prettier picture
Than this civil unrest

I don’t want your drugs
Mixed in with our sex
You can try to cut me into pieces
Next time, baby
I will be wearing a vest

11/17/15:

smoking after the gym
Sometimes the threats
Bother me
There is a nuke on mass ave
The duplex is not a million
It is a million 5
I am on my side
I am on my side
Maybe
He changed my mind
An’t nowhere to hide

I will abide

Please
Come back inside
Maybe he will
Change their minds
Maybe they will change their minds

10/30/15:
$50 dollar tacos
Back
In south
Town

Even when
I am on the
eastside
This
Train
Is glory
Bound
You
Know
I have been
Looking
And this
Is
What I found

I found

$50 dollar
Tacos
When I am back in south town

I have taken to
Flying
But I was born
On the ground

And o I know
That light
Travels

differently than sound

You know that I have been looking
And this is what is found
I found
$50 tacos
When I am back
in south town

It an ‘t always pretty
In the purple
Surround
It won’t feel pretty
Watching
Them
Drown

And you know that I have been looking
And
This what I found
I found
$50 tacos

When I am back in south town

10/29/15:

To eat from the earth
To eat from the sky
To eat from you
From now
Until

i
die

Para comer de la Tierra
Para comer de la cielo
Para comer de usted
De ahora
Hasta que
Mueras

10/20/15:

There isn’t enough light before dawn

It could fall off
if you leave it on
Where did I go
when I was gone?

And who did you sell me to?
You don’t need to take
To use
Part of
losing
Is being

drugged
In the drug
war

9/24/15:

Please don’ t kill me
And
Please don’t kill for me
I know
You have capabilities
Things are so fucked up
And I
Keep fucking up
I keep fucking up

Things are so fucked up
And I keep fucking up
I keep fucking up

Please don’t kill me
Please don’t kill for me
I know you have capabilities
Just pay me a
living
Wage

9/23/15:

Pretty while sleeping sleepers remix:

I use to watch
Them
When they were
Sleeping

That is different
Than
Watching them
Dreaming

The cell
They. Let me out of
Is different
Than the one he dwells in

In the box
Beaten
And bleeding
I don’t think
That he is sleeping
Or endulging
In the privilege
Of dreaming

They might not need
2 000 000
When
16000
Would do just the same
Feds stay uncovered
The cycle keeps repeating

In the end
The agencies won’t
They might come for him
While he is sleeping
Whiling
Indulging
In the privilege
Of dreaming

And I could
Go right deaf
To block out
the
screaming
But then
I wouldn’t
Be able
to hear
you

speaking

9/20/15:

When I am moving
I am not cold

I swing low
Down on the pole
Swing low
Down on the pole

Invent the role
Write the show

Swing low
Low
Down on the pole

I let go
And so it grows
I climb up
The  poles

Alogothyms are created
And controlled
They get paroled

I swing low
While riding
the pole

To tell
As was foretold

Feel the shifting
of the
Pole

Revise the role
It is your creation
To uphold

If you tell
It is fore told

The trap is
Old
You are
Just
In love
With a westside girl

9/3/15:
New girl promise
I am not going
to sit in solitary
A billion is enough for me

Tyranny is not something
In which
you believe
You won’t sit in solitary
Because
a billion is enough for me

And in your
Voyeristic
Fantasy
You
Can
Jerk off
Without anybody
watching me

I am not going to sit
Inn
Solitary
O a billion should be
Enough me

If you make
Your killing
You might never
Be
Free

But
I ain’t
Gonna
Sit in solitary

A billion
Don’t mean
As much
As
Your love
For
Me

8/26/15:

What do I do
In this regime
In the regime
Besides
keep it clean

What do I do
With this regime
With this regime
Come here
tell me
What you mean

What do I do
For this machine
For this machine
Besides
keep it clean

What do I do
In this machine
In this machine
Come here
show me
What you
Mean

What do I do
With with this machine
In this regime
When it falls
from above

There is
a difference
Between
Worship
and
love

8/24/15:

It is hard to understand

What you see

When you have

been in the dark

For for so long

Be careful with what you have

And they will give you more

Be careful with the now

And look forward

To afterwards

I know that they are wrong

And i look forward

To afterward

Porn is in the mind of the beholder

And i look forward

To afterward

I know the truth

May seem deceiving

I will not lie

So that they believe me

So that they believe me

O i look forward

To afterward

8/18/15:

You have never worked
Because
I have done the work for you
In your stalkers view
Could I say I am through?
Would you give me more
Since there is more that you can
Do?
I talked to blue
And she wants me to do her
Work too
You have never had to work
Because I have done the work for you
And this is the legacy
Of your world view
You think
I will always be there
To do the work for you
But what will you do?
When you have
Your own legacy
to live
up
2?

8/12/15:

I am going
To the market
To buy
Water

I am going
To the market
Because I am free

I am going to
The market to buy water
Do you want to come
And stand in line
With me?

I am going
to the station
To buy gasoline
I am going
To the station
Because I am free

I am going to the station
To buy gasoline
Do you have time
To wait
In line with me ?

There are places I have been
And there are places I have seen
I think that I have heard
But I felt
what you mean

8/6/15:

Sex kitten
Super solider

She
Should be dead
but still
She grows older

Super solider
Super solider
Beauty is in the eye
of the beholder

Super solider
Super solider
They have weaponized exposure
Super solider
super solider
With all this lava it is still getting colder
Fire blazing through the polar
More than one sun to make it solar

Super solider
Super solider
Maintain composure
In front of your controller
They told you
They sold her
Too hard to kill
Scold her

O a moment of silence for those that have been murdered
O a moment of silence for those that didn’t have to die
Make trades on the kill list
just be convincing of why

Super solider
Super solider
Something else will eat the poacher
Closer is different than closure
Holder is different than holding her
Seizure is different than forfeiture

Super solider
Super solider

Watch from the sky
As it smolders

If it wasn’t you
Then somebody else
Told her

8/5/15:

Glorified widow
Glorified whore
Petrified middle
O they weaponized the door
You do not always feel small when you are little
Growing does not have to mean consuming more
Should we reinvent the window
Just to shut the door?
8/2/15:

I am glad that you were not on that plane
I am glad that you were not on that train
I am glad you were not on that boat
I am glad that you were not on that goat

O you know
that I can
O you know that I can

Bend

7/19/15:

Weaponized beautiful
Weaponized habitual
Weaponized logical
Weaponized spiritual
Weaponized sexual
Weaponized biological

I just need some time
I just need some time
I just need
Some time

To breath out side

I just need some time
I just need some time
I am trapped
Inside his mind

I just need some time
I just need some time
To think
outside of the lines
iconoclastic

7/17/15:

But I am use to it
Undo
Undone

Wack
Wack
Whacking off

Wack wack wacked off

Hollywood hit squads

Before I start a sentence
That you would want to finish
We both know that you were never
Convicted

Hollywood hit squads
Hollywood death squads
Unitard sawed off

Hollywood death squads
It is about power
And it
is not
about
god

Hollywood death squads
Mine control pay offs
Chemical withdrawl
Satellites and theropods

Hollywood death squads
Unitard sawed off
Truth chips blowing wad
You don’t want to know your
Odds
Against
Hollywood death squads
Hollywood death squads

Before I start a sentence
that you would want to finish
We know
That
they
were
never
convicted

7/16/15:

Me lavo
Las manos

I lavo
Mi Cuerpo

Me lavo
La sangre
De sus manos

Me lavo
La sangre
Desde
Del agua

Me lavo
La lava
Antes
del terremoto

Me lavo
Te amo
En
Sangre
Y lava

Tu nombre
Es tu nombre

nuestra

manos

como uno

7/15/15:

Te amo
I no quiero mentirte
Te amo
Nunca quise mentirte
Te amo
Mis mentiras que Han dando
Te amo
Mis mentiras son peligroso
Te amo
La verdad e la libertad
Te amo

Quiero ofrecerte placer
Quiero tomar el sol en su exito
Quiero pasar mi vida contigo

El tiempo que nos queda

Te amo

7/13/15:

Quiero
Ayudarte
Por que
Te
quiero
Por favor
Dejame
Ayudarte
La
Paz
Lo que
Quiero

7/12/15:

Ride it
or get over it
Is this real
or
counterfeit
Ride it
or
get over it
Not all scars are permanent
Ride it
or
get over it
Keep your head down
Or
they will raid the house again
Ride it
or
get over it
Time
might not make it
legitimate
Ride it
And you might be on top of it
Falling off
Could take out a regiment
Ride or get over it
They will be here soon
We should leave before the news
So please
Ride it
Or get over it

6/30/15:
I am not fighting
I am not fighting
I am going to eat dinner
And fall asleep
Turn it on
Turn it off
Make it stop
I want to
Get off

I am not fighting
I am just crying

I am going to
Eat my dinner
And
Fall
Asleep

Turn it on
Turn it off
Make it stop
He already got off

I am not fighting
I am just trying

I am going to eat my dinner
And fall asleep

Turn it on
Turn it off
Make it stop
You
Would not
like
it
If
she
was
gone

6/22/15:

Independent of his creatures
Our energy
In containment
Creation is different
Than entertainment
Accomplishment
Acknowledgment
Soothe
Relieve
Define release
Wading
Inn
The in between
When I leave
You will
Still
Be
Standing
Wondering
What you should do
With the things that you stole

6/5/15:

The sand
On the river bank
Is soft and fine
I have given you
Almost everything
that is mine
It is alright
It is all right
It is all right
I walk back down the line
I don’t know why
I thought it would work this time

5/30/15:

He be him
Give
Some bread
And he eats for the day
If you teach him
To fish
He eats
For the year
Until
The fish are all gone
and the bread has
Disappeared
The smell
Of death
Is different
Than fear

5/29/15:

I don’t want to sleep In the river
Whiskey won’t make me float
I don’t want to sleep In the river
Absence won’t make up for the vote
I don’t want to sleep in the river
I
Don’t feel safe on this boat
I can’t sleep on this river
I can feel
Your kiss
In my throat
But
The only down this road
Is through the river
And
The river
Is growing bigger
Near the alamo
I can feel

the heat

Through the shiver
Come back
And find me here
by the river

5/27/15:

You can talk to them about me
And I try to look over the wall
To see
But you don’t talk to me about me
And some still do not know what to believe
The traumatized part
Is easier to deceive
A million people nood
The message was received

So they all start talking about us
But we don’t talk to each other about us
And I do not always know
Which satellite to trust
Volcanic ash will always leave dust
It Ain’t that far
Just reach out and touch
It is
probably
Healthier
to talk to each other about us

5/25/15:

Little
Baby
Reptile
hatchlings
Down
In del Valle

Crawling
Up the hills
Out of the alley
5/21/15:

Front side
Back side
Down side
Is that you
are still on my mind
In between the lines
I am still on time

I want to go
I don’t want to stay
But he might find us on the road
And try to take me again
If I really have a choice
I will choose to defend
If I see him coming
I might shoot him in the head

The cops an’t done nothing and
they don’t even pretend
But I am sure they
Will try to put me away again

Front side
Back side
Down side is that you are still on my mind

I can do right
I can do right
I can do
Right
This time

5/20/15:

Leo
Geo
Elliptical
Ethereal
I believe in tacos
But
I don’t believe in heaven

5/15/15:

Shop keeper
Showed
Me
A photo
Of
Me
In a book
As
A baby
An’t no
Cause
For
Alarm
It is just that
Sometimes
Photos
Leave scarsaz

5/14/15:

It
gave
Me
The machine
And
The machine
is controlling me

All this time
Inside your mind

Spandex

Retracts
After wash

The flood is on the plain
Make time
To read the signs
Long on the ride
5/11/15:
If less is more
Anyway
Then we are
Shutting down
All the sweat shops in Brooklyn
In
3 days

The things you said
Are different
Than the things that you say
There is a women dead on the highway
Her body is blocking traffic
And
I am
Running
late

5/5/15:
Down by the river
Dancing on the dock
To the music in your head
I don’t think
That I can make it stop
Wading in the river
Swimming through the shimmer
Release in the glimmer

I remember
That is shirt was
My favorite color
And I start to shiver
My finger
Is not far
From
The trigger

I don’t want to
Sleep
In the river

No

I don’t want
To sleep in the river
I am just dancing
On the dock
To the music in your head
And I can’t
Stop
=================================
Serial
Material
Lyrical
Spiritual

Serial
Congical
Burial
Territorial

Serial
Logical
Paranoid
Paradoxical

Serial
imperial

4/29/15:

You
You
you
are blaming
me
I iii
I am blaming
You
You
You
Are blaming
Me
We
We
We
Are losing the sea
You
Are blaming me
I am blaming
You
You
You
Blaming
Me
Me
I am under the tree
You are your knees
I shed my disease

You
You
You are
Blaming me
Me
I am blaming you
We
Are
Losing
The
Sea
You
You
You
Are blaming me
I am blaming you
We
Take what we need
First you give
Then you
Receive
I believe
Eve
Eve
In not the word
Word
Word
But the deed
Deed
Deed

You
You
You are
Blaming me
I am blaming
You
We are losing
The sea
You are blaming me
I am blaming me

First the cut
Cut
Cut
Then it bleeds
Bleeds
Bleeds
Bleed
Get off your knees
Knees
Knees
They
Shed
Their
disease

4/28/15:

Billy is still alive
I can apologize
Reclaiming the patriarchy
Daddy
Has gone
To visit
Elvis
Bretton woods
Is
North
Of
The old man
Rubble
Collateral
Silt
Sand
Billy
Isn’t dead
And
I
Can
Apologize
And
Maybe
Because
He
Died
On
Tv
We can be
Friends
In
Real life .

4/18/15:
My phone is listening
My phone is listening

I am talking to me
I am talking to me

My phone is listening
My phone is listening

I am talking to me
Even though they
Can hear me

Your phone is listening
Your phone is listening

To me talking
To me

Your phone is listening
Your phone is listening

to me
Talking to
Me

There are many ways
That they can see

Me
Talking to
Me
Cold
civil war

4/9/15:
I think that
I was
Murdered
By a
serial
Rapist
after Connor
Died
I don’t want to argue
about
What I saw
On the other side
Dying
Didn’t hurt
As much
As being brought
Back to life
Now
I am thankful
For what I have
And I try
To stay
Satisfied
Satify

Now
I think
That
I
Only died once
But there were many more
Times they tried
Now
It am too tired
To run
And too stubborn
To hide
Just leave me
In the Texas
Sun
To dry

4/7/15:

When I go
When I go
I love you

When I go
When I go
I believe you

When I go
When I go
It felt more like
Prison
Than a show
He never left his prison
Inside of his show

O I know
O I know
That I don’t
Know
O I know
O I know
That I don’t
Know

And I know
Why
I didn’t want to go
4/3/15:

I thank his god for him
I walk through
The middle
And around the bend

Please don’t let
Them hit you again

Use your numb to mend

Please don’t let them hit you again

You, me and Nixon
Were friends

Please don’t let them hit you again

I want them to stop hitting you
Friend
What I want is what I said

4/2/15:

Friends
Friends
sharing
friends

Friends until the end
We
Said
4/1/15:

I got a bag man
Sitting on the town
I stop at the supermarket
And I will come back around
I laughed at the president’s jokes
And I felt bound
I am the president’s joke
But look at what you found
And then my bag man
Wants to teR down the crown
The fascists say
That
They want to excicute
A 1/3
Of the crowd
And the knights of Columbus
paraded through a smaller part of town
Saying
Protect yourselves
While serving the clowns
The princess deserves to be heard
when she says it out loud
And the bag man will
Do his best
To keep the hangman
from coming back around
And now I get
to look at you
down town

3/11/15:

Fresh
off the fields
Fresh on the truck
Poisoned stability yield
A generation of billions
That don’t give a fuck
Flood bloody sewage
Run

It could mean more to me
An
Adult
messenger
Run
3/1o/15:

The devices change
Again
Battle in Atlanta
Battle for Atlanta
Battle over Atlanta

Plant a rant
Store

2/27/15:
I like it
When you watch me
But I can’t say that about everyone else
I have a whole mess
Of stories about freedom fighters
Playing
The hand I was dealt
I counted all the cards
And I know how this
is going to
turn
out

The rodeo
An’t as fun in the accident rain
I walk away
But I come back
Again
I keep coming back again

Take it from the ground
And put it in a bottle
Like it fell out of the sky
I
hope
The sky won’t mind
Maybe the sky
Won’t cry
I have to choose
my words carefully
Because
I hear you speaking them
Back to me
Even when
I am
Bbb by
myself

Take it from the ground
And put it in a bottle
Like it fell out of the sky

I would mind
The mining
of the sky

I have to choose my words carefully
Because
I hear them speaking
Words back to me
Even when I am
Bbb by
Myself
take it from the sky
And put it in a bottle
And it never
Ever
Has to hit the ground
I don’t want to tell them
What I found

I like it when you watch
Because I am never
bbb by
Myself
You do it
Just like everyone else
I want to blow it
Just like
Everyone else

I like it when you watch me
But I can’t say
That
About
everyone
Else
I love you
And we love
everyone else

2/21/15:

It is not the coming
It is the going
It is not starting it is the stopping
It is not the learning
It is the knowing
I accept strength in growing

1/12/15:

Devolvement in the 5 th remix

It is so devolved here
It is so devolved here

The sprawl
Is falling
Down
Inside
Out

The sprawl
Is
Falling
Down
Inside
Out

They have
Been
Burrowing
Underneath and
In between

Poisoning
Infecting
Raping
Tourchering
Repeating
Conditioning
Implementing
Developing
It is so developed here
It is so devolved here

Tear
it down
The sprawl
is
falling down
Inside
Out

Conditioned
manic
self doubt

Inside
Out

Implementation
is something
To complain
About

It is so devolved here

Inside out
The spray
Is taking away

the outside

1/8/15:

I know I am abusive
I know I was abused
I know that abusing you
Is not what I want to do

Rape is a weapon of the state

Shit in the water
Water in shit
On top of the fence
An’t a good place to sit

Rape is weapon of the state

We control where we congregate

De population
Population control
Sustainable society
That is allowed to set
it’s own goals

Rape is a weapon of the state

Habitats recognition
Reproduction without destruction
Factory working condition
Habitual habitat construction

Rape is weapon of the state
I can see the open gate

1/7/15:

I am going to stay dumped
I am crying about culture
Crying about constraint
It is hard to make promises
In a land
On the take

Colonization
Weaponized
rape

Trauma built to control
Constructions built to brake

Colonization
Weaponized
Rape

Rationalize
Recognize
Nationalize
Wipe white sugar
Out of your eyes
I do not have to apologize
I can stay dumped
Protholitise
Personalize

Colonization
Weaponized
rape

Colonization
Weaponized
Rape

Dead, dead, dead
Is different than late

Colonization
Weaponized
Rape

it is open
It is still hard to walk through the gate

12/15/15:
Looking up
Through a tube
At the evening news
And I am abusive
Because
I was abused
Braking the cycle
It is really
Fucking hard to quit smoking
Evan after I have died
He thinks
That
There Is
A they
Forge through the day
With your
Screen shot
Display
Breath
Through the lard mask
Come ask me to stay
The next time I see you
I will
Listen to what you have to say
12/1/15:

He is my ghost in the night
She can read the signs
I do not want to fight
Houston is not always kind
I need her by my side
A friend in which to confide
Leave his ghost where it lies
I do not need to hide
Religion should not dictate
our perception of time
There is more to find
I want to be on your side
B knows it an’t a lie
I learn how to love
The part that is dead is mine
I should of
Appreciated him
at the time

Celebrate without shame
I call out her name
Weaponized depression tame
I will experience pleasure
After I confront the pain

11/27/15:

Amphetamines and
The rape machine
If I told you the truth
You might be still too brain washed to believe
Assinations
Broadcast live on tv
I broke away from my handler
I can listen to me

11/17/14:
Poking and sucking
Prevention is the best response
The plain is green
Fed
from the rain
CRack attick
Slum lord
Come
And take me away
To where
All the infested
Million $
triple deckers
Lie in wait
I have been at the end of the line
and now think
before you complain
There are not that many ways out
Hopefully I get to see you
Again
11/16/15:

Advise is different than the answer to a question
My answers
Are not your answers
If I stop killing
People won’t stop dieing
I inhaled the piece of glass
In my heart
If I stop playing the game won’t stop
If I stop fighting
The war won’t end
I am going the right way
On a one way

11/3/14:

Free toxic waste in the homeland
Free toxic waste
in the wind
in the sand
Free toxic waste
In the jet stream
Where will it land ?
Will it land?

Papa, what are all those bullets for?
Papa what are all those bullets for?
What was that money you gave to the militia for ?

Free toxic waste in the homeland
Free toxic waste
In the wind
And the sand
Free toxic waste
In the wind
In the sand
Free toxic waste in the jet stream
Where will it land
Will it land?

Walking down the road
wondering
What is in the pay load
Walking down the road
Wonder what is in the pay load
What is in the pay load

Payload
In the race
In my face
On the surface
I do not want to play
How do we pay for it ?
Leagalise it

But
Tell me what is in the pay load
Walking down the road
Tell me what is In The pay load
Put the homeless in
Vacant aboads

Free toxic land
O, command
O, demand
Free toxic land
Where you stand
Please, understand
10/23/14:
Tengo un Cuerpo
Amo mi Cuerpo
Amo tu Cuerpo
No es más que otro cuerpo

Viaje al polo
Viaje
Viaje al polo

Tengo un Cuerpo
Amo mi Cuerpo
Amo tu Cuerpo
Yo no quiero para limpiar el cuerpo
Hay muchos organismos
cuando todas las personas tiene un cuerpo

cada cuerpo muere
Paseo en el polo
Paseo
Paseo en el polo
Quiero dentro de mi cuerpo
está en mi mente

Tengo una mente
Tienes una mente
la máquina tiene una mente
Que le dimos

el amor conquista el odio

10/18/14:

Song for Michael

I hope that you are happy
I hope that you are free
I wish that you could of given yourself
The things you would
Have given to me

I have loved you
All of my life
I love you after death
I fight for air
With every breath
I will fight for freedom
With the tools we have left

Pepsi
Blew your face off
I gave you
Mine in it’s place
I have learned to anticipate
The constAnt pace of change

They murdered you in the night
I struggle through the day
There are times I can not fight
All I can do is meditate

I forge through denial
I wade through the guilt
I will not project the anger
Time with you was a gift

Corporations raped the state
Corporations occupy the media
That raped your fame

Propaganda is weapon
The truth is hard to define
Prisons are a controlled business
Please occupy your own
Mind
10/14:15:

I do not
Really need it all
Gossip isn’t real
You have your heart
And soul
in your hand
My memories
I get to keep

10/12/14:

I have seen never land
I have seen wonderland
I have heard you call my name
Through the poppies of Afghanistan
I have burrowed underneath
The currency
Of japan
I have seen the
Governor
In his underwear
Wait
That is a lie
I have never seen never land
But I listened to his plan
Can you replace me
In your hand ?
Constructive
Objectivity
Of a wealthy man

trying to
understand
The history
I lived through
There was
Always
A part
of the lie
That was true

It was a bathing suit and
Not really under wear
She was a maid
Different than an aupair
Wallowing through
Presidencies disrepair
Even if I don’t want to
think about it
I still care
How can we poison our own clean water
On a pLanet we share?

I must have given
Wonderland away
In the tunnel
After the rain
Maybe it was stolen
And that’s why
I feel pain
But maybe
I can make
my way
there again

10/2/14:

She is a dog walker
God talker
Nanny pushin
a baby strollah
Dog walker
God talker
Nanny pushin
a baby strollah

I hope
japan
will be ok
Be ok
Be ok

Let the islands
fade away
Fade away
Sifting through
Silt and clay

I hope japan will be ok
Be ok
Be ok

Make the way
To ok
Through the bay
Island Land
Lava
Stay

She is a
dog walker
God talker
I am pushin
My baby stollah

Next to the bay

I hope Detroit will be ok
Be ok
Be ok

I hope Detroit
Will be ok
What would
Possibly take it’s place ?
Take it’s place?

Sifting through
Enactments
weight

I will come
When you say
When you say

We Make our way
Through the tape
Into
Gravity’s
escape
Set the table
Put Food
on the plates
Walk right through
Plantations
gate
Experience the blunder
Of
Entactments
weight

There are things
That can not be replaced

Fold
into the collapse
Or fall
into
structured
relapse

Walk your dog
Feed the cat
I am a feather in
Most traders
Cap

9/25/14:

The “what is 100 folks songs without a dylan cover ?”
One head light remix

Long drive home

So long ago
I am trying to remember when
That’s when they said he lost his friend
Well they said I died easy
Of a broken heart disease
We listened through the cemetery trees

I seen the sun coming up
At the funeral at dawn
The long broken arm of human law
Now it always seemed like such a waste
She always had a pretty face.
I wonder why
I hung around that place

Hey come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There has got to be something better than in the middle
Me and Cinderella
Put it altogether
We can drive it home

I said
I am cold
It feels like Independence Day
I am trying to brake away from this parade
But there has got to be an opening
Somewhere in front of me
Through this maze of ugliness and greed
I seen the sun up ahead
At the county line bridge
It is all good
and
nothingness is dead
We will run until she is out of breath
I will run until there is nothing left
There is no end
It is just another
window ledge

Come on try a little
Nothing is forever
There has got to be something better than in the middle
Me and Cinderella
We put it all together
Will you drive me home?
It is a long way home

Well this place is old
It feels like a beat up
truck
He turns the engine
but the engine does not turn
It smells of cheap whine and ciggerets
This place is always such a mess
Sometimes
I think
he likes to watch it burn
He is not really alone
But I feel like somebody else
I have changed
I am not the same
But somewhere here
in between
The city walls of dying dreams
I think her death is done
killing me

9/23/14:

http://www.gofundme.com/e7ckp0

He will let you
in the house
But not through
the front side
If you are bad
He will put you in a cage
But
you can’t leave
your mind
He talks about diving
deep inside
And then you smile
at the wife
I have never been
right
My whole
Entire life
I will try to answer
But you know
it is not
that tight
I was born
into a
class war
And I still
don’t want
to fight
Would it be easier
to acknowledge
It
as genocidal
squeaky
clean
I would drive away
With him
But a Dead soldier
ain’t
worth
the gasoline
I am not sure daddy
would of
wanted me
To be
so
caught up
In between
Or
forever
In your servitude
Deciphering
What your lies
mean
That
advantage
has always
been yours
Always
been yours
Always
been yours
Yours
So
The next time
You decide
To bring me into
Your mind
I want to enter
through
The front
doors

9/21/14:

The Inflatable wonderland
of the Americas
Is filled with air
Just because you left
Does not mean
that you didn’t care
Just because you an’t here
Does not mean that you ain’t there
Wonderland of the Americas
won’t inflate without air

9/18/14:

Some bitches
fed me bacon
And I feel really sick
Something left
to protect
In this prolific
Monolith
The Disease with which you came
Ain’t
the same
as
The disease
You left with

Always on the outside
Always on the outside
Looking in
Always on the outside
Always on the outside
Looking in

Half way down the road an’t no
Good place to begin
Patients
For the man
That learns
to forgive
It is not easier
to die
Than it is to live

9/15/14:

http://www.gofundme.com/e7ckp0

I can not go
Even though
I want to
Ido

I really, really
want to see you
I really, really
want to

Sometimes
it is like
The solitary you
is still
Confined

Where is the out?
When you are out?
Now that you are out
Now that you are out

Do you want them to know what this is about?

Are you out?
Now that you are out
Now that you are

They already know
What this is about

Is there an out?
Even when you are out
Even when you are out
This is about
Watching the crowd

I want to go
Even though
I know
It is not my show

I still really want to see you

9/11/14:

http://www.gofundme.com/e7ckp0

I am lost at the mall
I am not gonna fall down
I can’t runn around
When I am
So far up town
It is a long way down
When
I find what I found

I am caught in the wall
And the wall is falling down
And I can’t walk around
When the home land is found
But not always safe and sound
In an infrared pound
I look at him uptown
They said it out loud
and it is profound

I got lost in the fall
The drug war is down
Commodity is ground
And it is taken
and not aloud
Home is all around
Just because I want to
Don’t mean
I can go back uptown

9/9/14:

http://www.gofundme.com/e7ckp0

Violencia domestica
Problemo
Problematico
Problemo
Tipico
Problemo
Sistematico
Problemo
Encarcelamiento
Problemo
Producto

9/8/14:

http://www.gofundme.com/e7ckp0

9/1/14:

It is not sad but typical
Violencia domestica
This is how a healthy woman
Would most likely
Go down

I do not want to battle you
You picked a fight that
Only you
Can win
And I counted all of the ways
That i can lose
But still
have not
found a way
to begin again

There aren’t enough bags on the boarder
But you brought one out here for me
Here I am laid out on the street again
Just like you said I would be

You can take the words
And silence me
But I still won’t die a whore

You can reload
And try to kill
Me differently
Than the ways
that were tried before

But if I were to die
before you
You might long for me
In ways
You never thought you would

8/28/14:

I hate cocaine on a plain
I hate cocaine on a plane
I hate cocaine in the acid rain
I hate cocaine on a train

8/27/14:

Gata roams the hood
in east Arlington
It is not the grave yard of the battle field
It is a grave yard
next to the battle field

Pieces of the revolution remain

Gata roams the hood
In east Arlington

8/26/14:

Just because I broke it
Does not mean I get to fix it
Just because i found it
Does not mean
That you won’t get lost in it
Just because I tell the truth
Does not mean that they will believe it
Just because I am sorry
Does not mean
That I didn’t brake it
I do not have power to flaunt
I am just haunted

You carry that load
Carry that load
And the truth will be told

8/25/14:

Obsession
Relation
Vacation
Castration
Migration
Elation
Frustration
Re location
Emancipation
Ingratiating
Rank pile
Pedifile
Protection
Detection
Reconnection
Pack ratz
Annomolie

Oligarchy
Dutaronomy

Mandate
Mandatory
Purgatory
Reporting
Baloney
Obscene
Obscenity
Obsession
Security
Absurdity
Straddling stratification
Hush

8/23/14:

I need last months rent
Please
Someone hire me to sing in the choir
I need last months rent
It was going well for a while
I need last months rent
I trusted another liar
I need last months rent
Please
Hire me to sing in your choir

8/21/14:

There is a hole in a zone
Where the sun light is torn
And I stopped trying to make
You
Go away
There is a hole in a zone
Where the detail
Is worn
But
I can’t make them
All
Go away
I made a hole in the dome
when i was sad about corn
I dream these dreams
Even when I am awake
There is a
Groove
In a bone
Where the chip
Turns
And
Sometimes
Burn is pain

Detention
Retention
Direction
Protection

There is a hole in my heart
That some bullets blew out
But I always wanted to stay

8/19/14:

You do not always have to be a solider
When the war is over
You do not have to be a solider
The oppressed
does not have to
become
the oppressor
You won’t always have to be a solider
One day
the war
will be over
Will you be able
to stop
being
a solider?
The oppressed
Becomes the oppressor

Breaking the cycle of violence

8/18/14:

If I am going out
I am going out swinging
I see the bend
In the road
But My
heart
is still beating

8/17/14:

Every preacher needs release

8/12/14:

Am I asking
To be
Poisoned
by the pool man?
I hope none of those mother fuckers
Try to feed my kids
Spam
Most things dyed orange
Are bad
You should be glad
That this more
than a fad

VCR is in the microwave
The curtains are on fire
The disk on the totem pole

Plasma on air

Air for sale
Air for sale
Corner
The
Market
Hail, hale, hail

Air for sale
Air for sale
corner the market
Hail,hale, hail
Gritty shale
Raids
bail

8/8/14:

Curtains on the windows
Bars define the cage
Talk about neutrality
But is was designed that way
Ask me how I know
And she looks the other way

Curtains on the windows
The actors are paid
Corporations export weapons
The executive in chief looks the other way
Reality is the same on and off the stage
If I sleep on top on the covers
When I wake
up my bed is already made

Curtains on the windows
The bodies are out to be laid
Take care of yourself
And I will do the same
Isolation is a weapon
And I do not want to live
the rest of my life afraid

Bars on the windows
Curtains on the stage
One device could take it out
4 to rebuild again
I do not need enemies
Operatives are torchered or they just want to be paid
Keep your family together
And forge through the maze

8/4/14:

Ode to princess Di

She said
There will always be a light at the end of the tunnel
And you do not have to get lost in the shuffle
Follow your heart and it will guide you through the struggle

Elegance is truth unbridled

Work for what you earn Because no one is entitled
Unlocking files will protect the child in the cradle
And I will fight the good fight for the shuttle
Because
There will always be a light at the end of the tunnel
There will always be a light at the end of the tunnel
There will always be a light at the end of the tunnel
Just make it through the tunnel
She said

8/3/14:

Alberdeen remix # 7

Alberdeen
Has been released from
Quarantine
There is a difference between
A vaccine
and a cure
Fractured pieces
Of the ruling class
Seek
To eradicate the poor
And I am back on the kitchen floor
Next to the internet’s back door
Where the industry was taken over
And it seeks to make us
Whores

You can call it
WhAt you want
You can call it
What you want
You can call it
What you want
But
Prohibition
It was we have
Gott
You can call it what you want
You can call it what you want
You can call it what you want
But prohibition
Is what we have got
Ignorance is taught

You can call it what you want
You can call it what you want
I remember
What
I forgot
The truth can be found when
Sought

8/1/14:

Phyc op
And
I hated myself
And I hated you
For
Loving me

Sonic boom
Sonic
Sonic
Boom

2 missals
4 Mecca
And the war goes on
4 Eva
N Eva

Sonic boom
Sonic
Sonic
Boom

I love you
4 still loving me

Sonic boom
Sonic
Sonic
Boom

Codes for the files
Fuel for the miles
Numbers to dial

Sonic boom
Sonic
Sonic
Boom

Believe your eyes
Do not give your mind away

July 28 2014:

Odd refrainz :

His body
Is covered
In
Gold
And blood
And bullets
Gold
Blood
And bullets

It is just a ghost
In the killing fields

The files make it real

He is a ghost
in the killing
Fields

A ghost in the night again
My ghost in the night again
And he left the door open
Her cancer is a weapon

We do not always get to
Choose
to be
soilgers
We do not always have to be
soilgers

He left a band aid
In the yard
After I had
A

Panic attack at red lobster
There was another bag
On the lawn

When they dig
Will they dig deep enough ?
Will they dig
Deep enough?
Because
We do not always choose
To be soilgers

7/26/ 2014 :

Digging for gold remix # 7

On Friday
They pulled the plug
Saturday
I played soccer
And Sunday
I stayed in bed
On Monday
I invented a new plug
But you were already dead
I never wanted money for the plug
I just wanted someone to share my bed
But you were
Already dead
Now I have the plug
And the things we said
I still don’t want money for the plug
I just don’t want to be lead
I don’t want the corporations
To steal the plug
I want the energy
To be free
Instead

His body
Was covered
In gold
And blood
And bullets
Gold
And blood
And bullets

And when they dig
Will they dig
Deep enough?

When they dig
Will they dig deep
Enough?

7/25. 95-14

Lilithfair
Flash backs
Prodigy
Oddity
Ology
Doggy on potty
We do not always choose to be soldiers
With all of the lose zeros
Extrapolate
Congregate
Conjugate
Retaliate
Master mate
I am
Not the monsters
Following me
And you
Are
Not
Bate

7/22/14:

Definitely a work in progress:

Chorus:

1 in 2
Or
1 in 3
Is too many dead
For me
Msg
Benzene
Nitrates
bromate
Saccharin
Corn syrup
Herowin
Parabans

Supply-demand

Ultra a
Ultra b
Ultra c
Radiation
Radiate
Radiation
Irradiate
Sun screen
Sun screen
with butadiene
Ethylene
oxide
No more short
Good byes

Chorus :
1 in 2…
Or
1 in 3
Is too many dead for me
Msg
Benzene
Nitrates
Bromate
Saccharin
Corn syrup
Herowin
Paraban

Supply demand

Yellow #5
Yellow #6
Blue # 1
Blue#2
Green
Orange
Orange
Red # 3
Lake, lake
Color fake
Lives to take

Environmental
Trigger
Trigger
How should we
Grow bigger?

Chorus :
1 in 2…
Or
1 in 3
Is too many dead
for me
Msg
Benzene
Nitrates
Bromate
Saccharin
Corn syrup
Herowin
Paraban

Supply demand

Aluminum
Coal
Cadmium
Formaldehyde
Leather dust
Radon
Rubber
Placental
extract
React
React

Chorus:

1 in 2
Or
1 in 3
Too many dead for me

1 in 2…
Or
1 in 3
Is too many dead for me
Msg
Benzene
Nitrates
Bromate
Saccharin
Corn syrup
Herowin
Paraban

Supply demand

Lead
Arsenic
Rbgh
Tbhq
Bpa

Doing what we do
Doing what we do

Chorus :
1 in 2…
Or
1 in 3
Is too many dead
for me
Msg
Benzene
Nitrates
Bromate
Saccharin
Corn syrup
Herowin
Paraban

Supply demand

I do not need my nails
done again

7/20/14:

House song is hard to record remix #12 = phat mamma blues
Or fat parody
Or I am the house #3

Your butt is wide
As mine is too
Just watch my mouth and I will sit on you
Better treat me right
The word is out
I made you the king
Of my cellulite
Ham on ham on ham
On whole wheat
All right

My zippers bust
buckles brake
You were too much man
For me too take
The pavement broke
When you fell pdown
I am more
Than just
China town

I have never
Used A phone booth
I have never seen your toes
But still
When I go to the movies
I take up 7 rows

And when I walk out
To get my mail
It measures on
The Richter scale
We are down on the beach
And you are still a lucky man
Still a lucky man
Still a lucky man
You are the only one
With a tan

And if you eat
one more pie
Al a mode
I will need
Need new
Zipp
Codes

I was I on my 2nds
You were up on
On the 23rd
They shined my shoes
And now I take our word

My shawdow weighs 42 lds
My shawdow wieghs 42 lds
I only weighed
42 lds.
I only weighed 42lds
42

If I see you coming
They Better give me space
Give me space
Give me space
give me
Plenty

And
When they are
Hungry
I will feed their face
I will feed their face
Because
When I sat around the house
I was the house

7/18/14:

On my way
On my way
On my way
To taco cabana
I was followed
By a pack of
Wild dogs
And I thought
Maybe I could out
Run them
Because
I know that
I do not want to shoot
Them
Maybe they won’t bother me
If
I let them be
To arrive
Safely
At
Taco cabana

I remember
I saw a van
in Chelsea once
Filled with men
Used to making $5 a day
But I am going inside
Of
Taco cabana
Because
I planned it
That way

7/12/14:

I don’t like the way it started
But that does not mean I want it to end
I do not want enemies
I only want friends
It is happening gradually
Until the break in the bend
Would it happen naturally?
Without the pecking of banker hens
Will it be

Manufactured sacristy ?

A nuclear catastrophe ?

Almost accidentally

Sickness experimentally

And back to manufactured sacristy

Domesticity to defend

Flood, fire, famine and pain
Come back and
We can try again

Go on
Go on
And let it
grow
I know
How he knows
I can feel it grow
I know
How he knows

7/6/14:

It did not start here
And it won’t end here
When she cries
Her lava tears
If I talk about it now
Later, I will not live in fear

Will they take me with you
When you go?
Storage
Forage
pay load
Pace
Pacing out the race
Could you taste it
So close to your face?

It did not start here
And it will not end here
When she cries her lava tears
If you talk about it now
I will not live in fear

Who will go?
Do you want to know? Why?
Do you want to go?
Why?
Everything here will die
I should make more time

I miss
American corn
I enjoy being warned
Before they appear
It did not start here
And it will not end here
When she cries her lava tears
If we talk about it now
We will not have to live in fear

6/30/14:

It is not the first one
It is the safety enema
We can some fun
On the way to the cinema
And
Some of my stalkers
Have become my best friends
I love you
And I do not have to pretend
Katt lives in Stockholm
It should not be a corporations bar to tend
It is not the first one
It is the safety enema
I love you
As I leave the cinema

6/27/14:

Fuego entre
Sangre
Sangre entre
Dolor
Dolor entre
Peligrito
Pelgrito entre
Prision

persecución entre esclavitud

sueño
Sueno
Sonar

6/24/14:

It will only go so far
Shin guards
Shin guards
Allergic to soft kill
In the yard
Shin guards
Shin guards
Unitard
Sawed off

Ask permission
Ask for release
Accept submission
Demand relief
New petitions
Beyond Beneath
Burrowing into the mantel
of what you seek

Hunt for sport
Soothe, relieve
Kill for sport
Beyond beneath

Unitard
Sawed off
It will only go so far
Shin guards
Shin guards
I am allergic to soft kill in the yard
Shin guard
Shit, guards
Ask permission
Make a new card

6/21/14:

You can touch my hand
Without breaking my arm
It should not have to hurt
To prove you are strong
I only wanted the best for you
I never wanted to do you wrong
Now I am trying to play guitar
with a broken arm

Mommas is back in Oklahoma
Scolding children in their cages
I Care enough to give time
To fill your empty pages
Tourcher is outrageous
Experiments with contagious
Mommas clearance relations
Evidence, grazing

You can touch my hand
Without
breaking
My arm
You don’t have to hurt me
To prove you are strong
I only wanted the best for you
I never wanted to do you wrong
It is hard not to play guitar
With this broken arm

6/19/14:

I am wearing my ski mask in Maine
Take out the forest
It might not re grow the same
Weaponized depression tame
Scorched earth enflamed

I am wearing my ski mask in Maine

6/16/14:

Atrophy
Choreography
Changing topography
Curiosity
I can taste it in the air and feel it through my body
The way
The fire moves
I do not play
Because I do not want anyone to lose
Send in the extras
Let’s make some news

6/13/14:

Secrete prisons
Mass graves
Things come from the factory
Designed to brake
American waste is visible from space
National funds
On the international take

The world created the nation
And a corporation won the war
Subjects are not patients
Just more genoside like before

Toxic tampon shock
Shock and awe
Fast and furious
Something about
experiments at Warsaw
I am almost ready for a shuttle
Lower mpg pleacaar

Secrete prisons are expensive
Mass graves are inhumane
Consumer selective selection
Not exporting
arms is defensive

6/11/14:

Virginia swamp:

Statute
Statutory
Palpitations
Allegory
Ashes
No alimony
On you feet
Testimony

Hold back

Hegemony
Mony, mony,
Hegemony
Pony
pon,pony

pong pang ping
Files make it real
Files make it real
Flipping ping pack

Revoke
Evoke
Choking on smoke
Baroque
Croat
Dooting
Vote

I think he is coming but I do not know when….

Put out the fires before they start

6/6/14:

I m
Tryna
Get
Vagina
To ryme
With
Cointelpro
But I just go from
Vagina
Back to
North
Carolina to
Missouri
And then
Rhode Island
Piranha
Pariah
Vagina
Pirar
Pire
I promised
Neva to say nigga
And I am almost always honest
I do not mind it if
you
Call us
that
Though

6/5/14:

Penis
Penis
Privilege
Penis
Penis
Personhood
Penis
Penis
Servant
Penis
Penis
Deicide
Penis
Penis
Dominicide
Penis
Penis
Ardrocide
Pennis
Penis
Numbers
Penis
Penis
Amicicide
Penis
Penis
empowerment
Penis
Penis
Fountain

6/4/14:

Change your recognized face
O, your face
Change your name
O, the name
Took dem pills
O pills
Change the chemical make up
Of your brain
O, your brain
It is not the same
You are not the same
I do not feel shame
No shame
But you are not the same
Vain, vein is
Maimed
It is maimed
In the door way
Blonde
dwindles
away
Survail the
Fade
O the fade
Who wants to watch
O, to watch
that
Anyway?
O away
How can we experience pleasure
If we are numb
O numb
through the pain?

6/1/14:

De de dem dom
A Dom Dom dom
De de dem dom

Condition
Decondition
Recondition
Change position

De de dem dom
Dom Dom Dom
De de dem dom

5/31/14:

Mr. Mr. Mercenary,
I do not need to be
Torchered through
the controversy

Mr. mr. mercenary,
I factor lava into reality
While wading through
This celebrity fantasy

Mr. Mr. mercenary,
How can we send the army to do anything?

5/3o/14:

Single
Single
Double
Double
Triple
Quadruple
Cin cin
Sex sex sex

Agents for sale
Hale hale hale
Agents for sale

Mmmm
Raise raise bail
Gritty, gritty, shale

Front line
Back line
Side line
Mid line
Pipe line
Main line
Bass line

Hail hail hail
Agents for sale
Hail hail hail

Mmmm
Raise bale
Gritty gritty shale

5/27/14:

Abigail
raise the sail
Marie is gone
It is a sordid tale

Abigail
Raise the sale
Glass steagall gone
It could all still fail

When Plymouth is gone
And Salem, too
I might be sad
But I will not say
I never
Knew

Abigail, let’s raise the sail
We Can not get caught
Unprepared
Quincy is far
Gone is scared
Martial law
Would they dare?

5/25/14:

Middle, middle
man
Won’t you
Stand
Won’t you stand
For what is in your hands?
Middle, middle
man
Won’t you stand
Won’t you stand ?
Do not give in to demand
To demands
Middle middle man
Won’t you stand
Won’t you stand ?
Think for your self
Or face reprimand

Prevention
Attention
Prevention
Aversion
Prevention
Mention
Prevention
Relation
Prevention
Retention
Prevention
Formation
Prevention
Patients
Patients
Son

Middle, middle
Man
Won’t you stand
Won’t you stand
For what is in my hands?

Middle man
Should you stand
for every woman and man?

5/23/14:

Like
Disney and crack
Disney and crack
Boy I am glad it is gone
And I do not want it back
Just like
Disney and crack
Disney and crack

5/22/14:

Chattel
Property
Chemistry
Symmetry

It is not my list
It is the kill list
My hand is in a fist
Because my fingers
were broken

5/21/14:

Where do we put our nuclear waste?
Do we put it in Texas?
Do we put it In space?

Where o where
Do we put our nuclear waste?
In Texas
Or in space?

Modified corn taste

check point
Erase
Invisible check point
Replace

Where o where
do we
put our nuclear waste?
Do we put it In Texas?
Or put it In space?

Well I am not going to help them
Push it far enough away
Because
The next time
Baby
I want to stay

Where o where
do we put our nuclear waste?
In Texas or in space?

Things that we do not want
Are things
we still have to face
What horrible waste we create

5/20:

Sometimes
When they bring
You back
You are not the same as
Before

5/18/14:

It never was
It was all just talk
Could it be
Now that you are on top?

If I ever had a chance
it is
now
And not
then

All the lies
penetrate
Eradicate
My history

Would it be?
If it hadn’t been?
Could it be?
If we haven’t
Since

So
Park the the Lexus
In the drive way
Next to the escalade
And we will have
Lemonade
After the arcade
Next to the pool
He threw out my shoes
After school
But it is cool
Because
I can just
Work and buy myself
New
ones

I think I might
Only need 2 pair
If a nuke hits

5/17/14:

Que
Es eso ?
Mm
Beso
Mm
Beso
Que es eso ?
Mm
Beso
Mm mm
Besito

Mi Mano
Mi Cuerpo
Mi vida
Mi amor

La Tierra
Las Lunas
Los soles

El sol envuelve la Tierra
Mi amor envuelve el sol
Mi amor envuelve a tu
El amor conquista guerra

Que es eso?
Beso
Beso
Que es eso
Beso
Besito
Mi Mano
Mi Cuerpo
Mi vida
Mi amor

Quiero ser en tu vida
Eternidad

5/16/14:

Flip
A
Trip
A
Token

Immersion
Perversion
Coercion
Desertion

Assertion
Assertion
I have more to learn

5/15/14:

Tip
A
Trap
A
‘tropic
Give meaning
To
Words
When
Spoken

Tip
A
Trap
A
‘Tropic
Never said
Unbroken

Tip
A
Trap
A
‘Tropic
I might take my
perfect
back
I am worth it

Tip
A
Trap
A
‘Tropic

Tip
A
Trap
A
‘Tropic
Satellite range
Angora phobic

Homicide
matricide
Femicide
Parasite

I don’t always mind the sideline

Tip
A
Trap
A
‘Tropic

Sun envelops the earth
Every time

Will someone pay me to sing in the choir?

5/14/14:

Honey, honey, hoe
Ooo
Hang my head over
a watch dem blow
Step up soon
Or go

Honey, honey, hoe
Ooo
They are loyal to their shows
Swim, swim, row
Swim, roe, row
Bleed, float, flow
There aren’t any secrets
In this surveillance state
I know

Honey, honey, hoe
Ooo
They won’t test the rape kits
Due to a budgetary shortfall
Nauseating cat call
If they stop now
some of them
Will survive
withdrawal
If we withdraw now
There will be
priorities
to afford

Honey, honey hoe
Ooo
Infant fatality rates
Countiue to grow
Preventable like before
Reported ed
Miscarriages are 1 in 4
-[1:1] +
Step up soon
o, there is a door

Honey, honnie, hoe
Ooo
Caesarian surgeries are sold
Insurance companies fold
Conditioning at birth, control
Lock before load
Can not be told
Here it is, hold

Not all honnies are hoes
O, I know
Sometimes
it is hard
to live
In your own mold

5/10/14

He had already made up his mind
So I just let him grope his groupie that time
The future is not ours
it is mine
That was not a choice
I had to decide
Send the robot
through
the field of mines

He has already made up his mind
He gave a piece, fine
I do not need tO Let my groupies grope me this time
When he is angry he is trying to be kind
There will be more robots
To design

5/6/14:

It is just like a video game
It is designed the same way
But played differently
Hopefully
I don’t want to be your enemy
I do not always have to be a
Victim
When you look into the future
Can you see
A world free of
a byproduct
Of sovignerty
Things are not as I want them to be
They would spend more money
On me
In prison
and that is
Reality
But this is not practical
Mathematically
O creativity
And the perils
Of dual use technologies
Foreseen consequence and
Responsibility

It is just like a video game
Because it is designed the same way
But it is played
Differently
Hopefully
I do not want to be our enemy
I do not need to be a victim

5/4/14:

Share and make
Give and take
It is hard
to burn bridges
in the rain

5/2/14:

Capitalist
Philanthropist
Romanticized
pharmacist
capitalist
Pharmolcolgy
Punishment
Punishment
Nutritional deficiency
1 st world Society in decay
Reparations, replay
Pessimist
Pacifist
procrastinate
hesitate
Perpetuated propaganda pushed
And Implemented
Chemical dependency
Is
Chemical war fare
Spoil nuke scare
Roll prepared

Doses are hot
Bodies are cold
Doseages are bought
Doses are sold

Shaking down
The padded
Black market
Puppet show

Break down the
Confines of chemical
Control

Shake down
The padded
Black market
Puppet show

Break the down
The Confines
Of biological
Control

Shaking down
The padded
black market show

Break down the confines
Of physical
Control

Programming
The padded
Black market puppet show
Throw something on

4/28/14

Forgiven remix#12:

Tell me what you have given
you have told them what you have done
I do
Is more than
I have been doing
Word without action, none
Please tell me that I am forgiven
Before the day is gone

4/28/14:

Lay your occupation down
Rise rise rise
Lay your occupation down
Rise rise rise
Lay your occupation down

4/27/14:

I know you said
you want it
So lay your segregation down
I know you said
you need it
So lay your segregation down

Just because you witnessed rape
In prison
Does not make it ok
to be homophobic

It is easier to watch the movie
Than it is
to live it

4/23/14:

Thank you for not dying
When they tried to kill you
My friend
But they might try again
My friend

Preventing a
Collateral damaged
End

4/18/14:

O ya
I am jealous of a porn star
you should be just who you are
And
O ya
I am emotionally
Co dependent on a crack addict
And I was
Co dependent
on a dealer before that
And He is dead and he is not coming back

Break
Break
Breaking the cycle

4/4/14:

Labels as tools:

What is in the pot
Let’s go
What is in the pot
I want to know

What is in the blow
What is in the blow
Give me the ingredient list
I want to know

What is in the smack?
What is in the smack?
I want to know
How did it get here?
Did it come from the south?
How did it get here?
Let’s look look around

What is in our food?
What is in our food?
Sometimes labels
are valuable tools

4/3/14:

Murder song:

There is a gun
There is a bomb
I have seen a knife
I have clothes on
Polonium
My sister is gone
Now I sing a murder song
Now my mom and I
Do not get along
I can not believe that glee has gone on so long
Creation is different than entertainment

4/2/14:

Did you cum for what you came for?
Do you live for what you die for?
Do you die for what you live for?
Can we live together before we die?

I believe in me and I believe in you
With the way that you believe in me
There is not much that I can not do
Knowledge is power
To possessing your own mind
Honesty has saved my life so many times

3/26/14

When your details line up
You knock your detail down
walk up a side street
And then turn around

Junkie goes up
Let the junkie come down
The water is on fire
feet on the shaking ground

Junkie goes up
Consumption won’t go down
Body is too manipulated to take a look around

The bankers gave your job
To a slave in a factory
with nets all around
Just another body that will never hit the ground

They do not want you to come down,  the will try to stop you from coming down      They do want you to make a mess on the ground

They come around

Junkie goes up
Gmo dulls them down
Seeds are patented
Nothing left of the indigenous in the ground

Disney wants control
Don’t give them control
Depopulation, the process will not always be slow
Mk ultra morphed into mass population control

Take your details, line them up
knock your details down
Go up the side street
Take a look around

I will take my pieces back, fine
I am not taking Disney back
No, not this time

My voice
My choice
My words
My body
My birth
My love
My strength
My courage, my vote
So much to make
Awake

3/20/14

You can have the burnt flag
Off of my torn dress
And the troubled part of my mind
Listen to my beating haurt
if the rhythm
helps you
keep time

You have put these things to good use
What more can I give to you?

And if love ends the war
What further
Destruction
Will the contractors do?

Bankrupted us city blues
The banks own the statehouse and most of the news
We should protect ourselves
And not take the abuse

bankrupted us city blues

Bankrupted us city blues
Fluoridated water
Depression, soft kill
Gloom
Bitch, use
I should know the difference
between
who and whom

Ooooooooooooo
Shadow
Bankrupted us city blues
What else do you want to do?

3/15/14

I am a mother
And I do not want to be fucked
Would it be enough to touch?
What would be enough?
I am a mother
And I have been
a motherfucker
But I am capable of love
I am a peace keeper
Weaver
Teacher
Scientist
Healer

3/14/14
I am not frightened
I do not ever need to be alone
The road to Tripoli
Is different than tripoli road
I can run to Russia
Y nada es
gonna explode
My stitches are scars
And she is beautiful
Alberque is beautiful
I am apathetic
And I am not anorexic
I can not digest modified food
Maybe you have something else to do

a famine will sweep over the land
I do not want more blood on  my hands
Will you stand next to me?
Use the best of me
Positive energy

3/11/14

Would it be enough to stand still?
If we got them healthy
off of pills
and paid off all of the bills
Would there be anything left of the colony to hold on to?
You never had anything to prove
But there will always be more work to do

2/25/14:

His body is swinging
From side to side
Right to left
Side to side
His body is swinging
From side to side
Right to left
There are no sides
Hanging so high
His body is swinging
From side to side
It is not that I forgot
It just never left her mind
His body is swinging from side to side
Please, tell me how the rope was tied

I do not want to ever cut you down
I do not want to cut you down
I will take what I am allowed
Please, I do not want to cut you down
No one is allowed to pass me around

I do not want to let the fear control me
I Will not let pain take love away from me
I do not want this anger to be so numbing

You will never have to cut me down
Please do not cut me down
You do not have to cut me down
I do not have to hang around

2/09/14:

I am in the house
And I want to go outside
I want to go outside
I want to go outside

I am in the house so I must be on your side
I must be on your side
You must be worth my time

I am in the house
And I want to go out side
I am going out side
I am going to run away and hide

Bloody fucking cunt
you are a bitch on his side
I am a bitch on his side

Maybe he will change his mind

More orders to abide
There an’t no where to hide
They want to put me back inside

maybe he will change their minds

maybe they will change their minds

I do not need a ring when
There are slaves in the mines
Unwashing minds
I saved all of this time to fly

10/13:

salida del sol, salida del sol
O, how the morning
can be so cold.

Salida del sol
if they violate probation
maybe he will make parole

salida del sol
o how this population is controlled

salida del sol
before the riot
someone else scored a goaaaal

salida del sol
it is just something else
that a junky stole

salida del sol
let us go down to the river
and brave the toll

10/2/13

Karen can I borrow your car
Because he really, really wants to see me
He really, really wants to
And it really an’t that far
From boston
He is on house arrest in methune
And the train only runs up to lawerence
And I have to pick her up at 2

So, karen can I borrow your car
Because he really, really wants to see me
He really, rally wants to
It should not have to be so hard

9/13:

it is suppose to hurt when you are born
and it is suppose to hurt when you die                                                                            When I look up at the grey,
I fear chem trails have taken the sky.                                                                                     Sometimes I miss you,
but I am glad that you are still alive

8/20/13:

You don’t need to kill a boy
Just because you can

There will be orders that you do not have to obey
I can find humility
I can walk away
I can find serenity
There are prices that I will not pay

I will miss the ocean
After it is gone and changed
We will fight the cancer
And focus this pain

I don’t need to kill a man
Just because I can
O, ya he hurt me real bad
O, boy it made me real sadd
I don’t need to kill a boy
just because I can

I love being human
I can start a band
I can do more healing with my hands

I don’t need to save a boy
just because I can
No give and all demand
My body is not conquered land

7/15/13:

There is a penitentiary
It is a new century
I am alive
that is my reality
I do not need you to care about me

7/17/13:
Head bands
Contra band
Anal tear
Prey as prayer

7/12/13:

pay what you are asked
and do as you are told
or your beautiful body will be filled with holes
Cut up and dirty
on the side of the road
Thank you for asking but I am not that cold

Just because you tell the truth does not mean that you grow old
After the flood you,
should know about the mold

7/8/13:

it takes more than one man to arm a drone.                                                                        Most of them have cameras now
so that you will not have to die alone.
In case you were wondering
a                       is sort of   Like a scone.

div>6/13:
Out the window
i can see her torpedo
But it is not the same for me, though
Bullets
unnamed
in the stockade
Qricochet
wars escalate
Fractured hurricane
and I complain
respirando, pasado, temprano, chicano
Chicago, colorado, embargo
Papaya, Monsa to  is a liar,
They started a fire,
Now we have to put it out
Out, out the window, another effergy
now i have to protect my family,
Embrace mortality,
and all of the bees
traders, currency
Reciprocity
I sacrifice my feminity,
to a manufactured crack  mentality
Brutality
And ambiguity
now that you have taken advantage of our body,
what can he do with the rest of me?

and once you have killed almost everything,
You might be lonely
if you kill everything,
And everything is dead,
just like they said,
and you are alone with the machine
Would you truly be happy?
Or would you be lonely?

5/13:

I do not know when the bleeding is going to stop                                                            but I know I get to work in the morning

The national gaurd is not here to protect us
and the FBI talking to you is not fate
they have
a long, long list
and a pile full of bodies
There is a wide open gate
So, I am going to suck some dick
and then cooperate
and then I am going to leave
and if you want to
you can wait
there are so many candidates
spending more then they can make
I do not need you to believe me
I just want you to be safe

i am so tired of crying and I want to celebrate                                                                 Hoary, hooray
I do not always miss the rain

Do not cry baby
we can catch the next train

4/13:

You could treat me better
You should be more kind
You should love you better
When I am gone I will be hard to find
I am almost through writing letters
So please do not waste my time
I am giving up on betters
My hands are all that are mine

11/13:

i don’t want to be in this race and class war
hate makes you blind and you need to see more
i can’t even look at you while i am walking out the door
i don’t want to be in your for profit war
you should know by now that the feds are at the core
the cat has been microchipped
and it is dead down on the shore
i don’t want to be in this war anymore

i don’t want to have to pick a side
you are all leaders in my mind
please forgive and unite
Hear the community plight
i don’t want to be in the middle of a fight
this growing class divide
the bankers gentrify

i don’t want to be in your race and class war
hate makes you blind and you need to see more
Maybe I should look at you
before I walk out the door
i don’t want to be in this for profit war
you should all know by now
that the  feds are at the core
the cat has been micro chipped and
the rat is dead down on the shore
i don’t want be in this war anymore

give all the troops homez
don’t give them reason to use the drones
i guess he needs his time alone
bitch, own

10/1/12

52 ¢ on a white man’s dollar
and i am riding on a white man’s dick
yes i am a white man’s daughter
but the white part does not always stick

55¢ on a white man’s dollar
and i am riding on a white man’s dick
this institutionalized condition
there are now too many of us to fix
ride us and kill us slowly
or just give us the flu and make us sick
chemical weapons and dirty dirty bombs,
bom,bom, ttick

57¢ on a white man’s dollar
and i am riding on a white man’s dick
there an’t no need to hollar
concrete and rubber walls are thick

genoside is the whore
and slavery is the bitch
i want a millionaire to scratch this itch

they say be what you want to be
and you will be the one
to beat the odds
i am down on my knees
and he is praying to his god

65¢ on a white man’s dollar
and i am riding on a white man’s dick
honney bridge my gap
give me a name
with a chip in my collar
18¢ says i an’t got to be a spic

i can’t afford to eat
and i can’t afford to sleep
with all of this injustice
our society will not keep
i feel it sinking, sing deep

he says respect yourself
and you can make change
but it is hard to stand up
when rolling in a mass grave

9/21/12
he is just another army ranger on the street
he is just another army man on the st.
he is just another man begging to eat
someone feed him please?
someone help him please

9/8/12

I want you around
i will go looking
if you want to be found
if i can not find my words
I will use sound
there are so many weapons to be used on a civilian crowd
before i am put in a cage
i would stay under ground
i hope to see you around town

7//12
it is a long way from dallas
to oklahoms city
after ugly,
the truth becomes pretty
False flag distractions
believed by the masses,
have pity
failing infastructure
and everything smells shitty
all of our collective money for war
and we can not afford our slaves
pity will never make us brave
there is no freedom in a welfare state

4/1/12:

ballad of a plastic bag bystandard:
the toes at the feet
the feet at the ankle
the leg at the knee
leave the femur to decay
here, i mean the things i say
please, do not take me away
,I really wan to stay
please do not make me go away
the toes at the feet
that is where he starts to bleed
i can faintly hear the screams
o, the middle of the night
there is truth in every lie
i am just trying to survive
now, I want the alibi
the toes at the feet
the feet at the ankle
the leg at the knee
i will give you back your keys
but i really do not want to leave
please hear this plead,
i do not want to leave
i can reside in the evolution of belief
the toes at the feet
the feet at the ankle
the leg at the knee
are in a plastic bag
at the top of the street
near
   the public square
where
i
used to dance

3/12:

it is long way from new york city
but the city is pretty  convenient  at night
it is a rather small space for three people, so
baby, babies please do not fight
sleep now child in the morning light

i do not want to stop in CT
i do not want to give my son a sedative
pharmaceuticals are not always medicine
gmos are not healthy in food

2/11:

me and my baby are running from arizona city

and my baby still looks pretty in her red dress, the town grew from out of “nothing ” and now it is just a mess

when they run out of water they will steal like the rest

1/28/12

i want to learn from this and not make another mistake
something inhabited  is not there to take

There is no such thing as Zion
That is what she heard me say
If I let him fuck my brain out
he won’t want to stay
With all this chemical warfare
I do not have time to play these games
I am trying not to miss you when you are not left here to blame
Away

there is no such thing as zion
that is what you heard me say
it is all a facade; taxes we should not have to pay
It is not about religion
it  is just more bankers to obey
genocide to reconcile genoside wll not take away the pain
if we celebrated the same holidays would you look at me the same?

there is no such thing as zion
that is what they heard me say
they want to blow my brain out because it just gets in their way
dismemberment is messy
and there are so many american bullets already made
i am not feeling luckey but i am not really afraid
i just do not want to make another mistake

as the smiles fades off my face, i am  still as the earth shakes…..

9/2011

i have the right to know when i am not feeding myself poison.

1/2011

Some where in an armored tower

I found my dead, red cell phone…

i want to make my own bullet proff halter top that fits me so i do not have to stay so quiet all of the time…

6/11
the things that you said
are not what you mean
i wish i could give you all that you need
who am i to coax you into spilling your seed
class mobility mostly has to do with greed
within you are all the answers that you seek
with that , i think that i should leave

the sun rise
the sun rise

yes, i like your neighborhood just fine
with the maids and gardeners and then there is just doing time
you better cut me down to size
cut me back down to size
leave me on the side of the road with her disguise
i am just lucky that i am still alive
i am going down to the pawn shop and i am going to cover sublime…

” down here at the pawn shop….”

5/24/11

he is a cold mother fucker

it is a crule, crule world

can you live forever frozen underneath the sun?

dry up all your tears honey, the beginning has begun

5/8/11

momma did you bring me silver, momma did you bring me gold?

what did you bring me moamma to keep me from the gallows pole?

daddy did you bring me silver ?daddy did you bring me gold?

what did you bring me daddy to keep me from the gallows pole?

dancing down dr. gallo’s pole, swinging down dr. gallo’s pole

brother did you coal? brother did you bring  los sol?

what have you brought to save us from this shifting pole?

3/8/06

he is like a red wood tree long and lean

i wish i could say what i mean

he is like a red wood tree lean and long when he goes back to California i will just write more songs

4/24/11

So when you die your population controlled death ,
You already know that you are leaving me in this mess
I should probloby do more  
if not my best
To make sure that my children do not die with the rest

3/31/11

the out skirts of Roanoke:

mr. lynch after you they named your town

mr. lynch you still have my head on the ground

mr.  lynch  i have been fooling around

i have learned to come down with out making a sound

mr. lynch my issues with conformity are profound

mr. lynch the bankers own the crown

mr. lynch your history does not make me proud

mr. lynch i only take what i am allowed

mr. lynch you have helped the bankers control the crowd

mr. lynch i am comming down…

1/11/11

i do not think anybody is as bomb as me

and i do not think anybody can make bombs but me

and i do not think that anybody can sell bombs but me

and i do not think anybody can use my bombs but me

and they might tear me a part….

one of the nukes could actually go off because that is why we made them

12/22/10

cia funded the taliban

supply demand

do you think the civil war that brought us here has kept us strangers?

do you think being strangers has kept us both  alive?

I am never bored

and I am always in danger

do you really want to be involved in my life?

11/22/10

frick a frack frick a frac frick

prick

how many peppers did they make you pick?

frick a frack frick a frack a frick

mic mic spic

what color water do you drink?

11/19/10

littel baby poo poo
went hopping through the forest
picking out field agents
and boping them
on the head
boping them
on the head

11/11/10

the short  highway out of new hampshire leads into the big dig,

didg dug

10/12/10

25 $ a day how many  people did they make you kill today?

there is nothing that you can buy that i would not give away…

10\14/10

a mass grave does not always have a hearse
( re posting this piece on the same day)

Tall dark and handsome contractor falls in my lap
All good day traders wear a cap
The whole thing feels like a trap

We wants to whisk me away to the gulf coast
Out on the sea
He has a boat
Shake the spooks keep the ghosts
If I jet back east I will need a coat
I have to be back in boston on Tuesday to vote

So mr. my weekend is not really free
I have 4 other places I need to be
I could make time
Just for me
They can not tap me as easily on the sea
I have to take care of my responsibilities
The world is my community

Tall, dark and handsome contractors
Burrow low
O the winds blows
Go

I should just wear my bathing suit to work
I do not have time to flirt

I want to spend time on the gulf coast
For what it is worth
What was once pristine has become perverse
I think the ocean needs a nurse
A mass grave does not always have a hearse

Tall dark and handsome contractor
Falls in my lap
All good day traders wear a cap
The whole thing feels like a trap
I hope the coast is there when I get back

9/20’s/10

there is no 3rd wedding party
just a third cup of coffee
there is no asylum or amnesty
and no such thing as anarchy
Thosewho keep slaves will never be free
you can be who you want to be

9/20’s/10

he.    ain’t gonna be in new york when i get back
he ain’t gonna be in new york when i get back
i can’t  help thinking about
what we could of  had
i know the next girl you go though
will have something that i lack
he an’t gonna be in new york when i get back

new york  is no place to take a nap
it burns
dirty, loud and fast….
something like that would never last
new york is no place to take a nap

there an’t no good reason to change the past
sometimes it is fun to do math
there is more than one way to interpret the facts
i just wish i could appreciate what i have
there is no reason to change the past

new york is a good place for a snack
all of this southern food is making me fat
fluoride and sewage spewing from the tap
i can not see straight enough to re draw the map
new york is a good place for a snack

new york will still be there when i get back
i am tired of arguing about the attack
the truth will relabel the past

8/20s/10

i wish i did not say anything at all….

6/20’s/10

he is not a Marine.

he is not in the air force

he is not in the army

he is not in the Navy

his labour has been out sourced to a privet company

do you think your company will  bury you a stranger?

do you think your company will bring you home alive?

you got bored with a taste for danger

but do you you really want to be involved in that fight?

What kind of good have you found in Texas

that you could bring to Afghanistan?

is it all about a job and little bit of money?

you are just a pawn in a billionaires plan

chemical war fare only leads to uninhabitable land

the cia funded the taliban

the same occupation,  a different line in the sand

11/12/09

i am mine

i am yours

we are ours

and the hours

just pass  by

11/16/09:

it seems odd that  nations that earned their freedom by liberating themselves from an oppressor

would remain in debt to the oppressor

I would think that they would be owed reparations

11/20/09

It was raining this morning and so i wore my bathing suit to work. That way, I am ready if a flood were to occup

L11/23/09:

5 minutes before the five minute break a mr mr ta said

that flesh was the color of the wood below the stairs

and i asked whose flesh?

and he said what 3 times

until he heard what i said but he did not under stand

mayb i should have asked him whose wood,

arbol tiene vida, vida tiene arbol

11/25/09

it has become apparent to me that my muscles remember things that my mind will never remember

12/04/09

fight, fight fight for your mind

12/8/09

somewhere,
in a dorm room
that the
uni bomber
use
to
live
inn
sits an adviser,
patently
waiting
for
lunch

12/22/09

the trophy I never won is
the trophy i will become
you can occupy the land
but you have not occupied the sun
all the privilege I have seen
has come from somebodies else’s gun

1/14/10

i do not want to go to st. louis
but it is a stop along the way
i do not want to go st. louis
and no I am not going to stay
hope my babies do not cry
because they ain’t seen their daddy for days
i do not want to go to st. louis
but mama’s got bills to pay

1/19/09

i am awake and i am afraid
up on stage, he looks great
only count the good days
and hope that it is not too late
but it is
because he is already in a grave

1/28/09

wrote the chourus after playing in the tunnel last night:

he has been
systematically eliminated
it is not really that complicated
systematically eliminated
genocide is celebrated

2/18/10:

she is  a prisoner in her own body

suddenly I wanted to remember

everything that happened

i don’ now if things change time or if time changes things

maybe things just change

2/20/10

while i was at the house with the pool
he threw out half of my shoes
it is not worthy of the news
but he threw out half of my shoes

2/28/09

drowning in my own fluids,

lungs heavy with smoke and smog

5/6/10 :

i went from nh to AZ and then back to nh and i discovered that the it is not just the boarder that is littered in bodies the reservations are pretty cluttered too…

6/20’s/10

he is not a Marine.

he is not in the air force

he is not in the army

he is not in the Navy

his labour has been out sourced to a privet company

do you think your company will  burry you a stranger?

do you think your company will bring you home alive?

you got bored with a taste for danger

but do you you really want to be involved in that fight?

What find of good have you found in Texas that you could bring to Afghanistan

is it all about a job and little bit of money

you are just a pawn in a billionaires plan

chemical war fare only leads to uninhabitable land

the cia funded the taliban

the same occupation,  a different line in the sand

8/20s/10

i wish i did not say anything at all….

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